Kanye West and I’s Relationship

The Kanye West Iceberg

So I first started listening to Kanye In February 2021 and he pretty quickly became one of my favorite artists. I had heard his most popular songs like Father Stretch My Hands and POWER, but I didn’t know Kanye West. That was until the Kanye West Iceberg was posted on YouTube. This video really changed my life. I became infatuated with everything Kanye West related. And to be honest, he is the greatest artist of all time. There are some Kanye songs that I am shocked even exist. His vision is unlike any other artist ever. He’s the GOAT. (future alex here, yea I recommend everyone go watch it if you like Ye https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=J_CT8dy2mlc. I would also like to add that this was the same time Kanye and Kim divorced, and really all this craziness with him started with that, but this video honestly was huge for the program in my music listening career.)

So I started writing this a month ago…

Obviously since then, he has gone off the rails on Twitter. This post was going to be about how I started listening to Kanye and how he is really the reason I love music as much as I do. Really, that iceberg video is a big reason too. I learned so much about something that I wanted to learn about. I highly recommend for Kanye lovers or people that want to start loving him, although I can’t imagine anyone would want to. (

I miss the old Kanye

I’m listening to Kanye while writing this. Paranoid just came on and the hair on my arms stood up and I want to cry. Ever since he got divorced from Kim, he has just not been the same. He’s always had problems; the VMAs, the political rants on the Pablo tour… but now he’s just downright insane. But damn… I love him so much. I HATE YE. I remember a few days ago when all the Twitter stuff started happening, I got in the shower and I just started crying. And I really thought to myself that maybe it wasn’t him. Maybe it was a clone or something… because my Kanye West would never do this. What would Donda think? He really is his own worst enemy. (wow im impressed with myself this isnt even bad)

Why do I even love this guy

I was too young to witness his prime in real time. I remember the Father Stretch My Hands beat drop being huge on YouTube, but like I said I didn’t know anything really until the Kanye West Iceberg was uploaded in February. And Donda was about to come out. Anybody that followed the Donda album as closely as I did knows how magical was. I remember the first song I heard on the album was Jesus Lord. To this day it’s one of the best songs I’ve ever heard. Please listen to it. It was leaked from his first exclusive listening party. But, I remember staying up late waiting for the second listening party to start. I was so happy. I was hearing all these brand new songs, and I had them all on a MEGA file so I was listening to them everyday. And then the third listening party happened and some of the songs were different, like a Jay-Z verse got replaced by a DaBaby verse. And it was amazing to hear that progression and hear it all come together on the final version of the album. And then the album released at 8am on a Sunday. I was asleep… but I remember waking up to missed calls and texts from so many people I didn’t even know. And junior year had just started. It was just a lot of really cool stuff all happening at once, I don’t know. So that was Donda. (yea the Donda rollout changed my life i think, I was on Twitter a lot and i was 15 and it was summer and I went to Disney World and I went to california… and SOPHOMORE YEAR had just started… and i was on snapchat a lot and it was a good time, really grew a lot musically during this time! and also, I hadn’t heard much music at all, and Donda is an amazing album. It’s maybe not on par with some of his other albums, its long, there are some misses, but some of his most beautiful songs come from Donda, some of his hypest songs come from Donda.)

So I started writing this a year and a half ago…

Yea, i dont know what my direction for this post was going to be, but I just saw Ye live in New Orleans a few weekends ago, I still have the wristband on. It will come off, in shah Allah. It kinda felt like the finale of my Kanye journey. I beat the Ender Dragon. The concert was amazing and it was just about as magical as I could’ve hoped. I would say it maybe even exceeded my expectations. What I do want to say is that Kanye West is an absolutely gifted, creative genius, and is largely responsible for changing rap and paving the way for the explosion of the genre. He beat 50, he made 808s, he made Dark Fantasy, he made The Life of Pablo… these are poems, they are plays, it is art, to the highest degree of what art can be. He is a one of a kind individual that had a lot of unfortunate things happen to him. He’s one of the most talented musicians in the history of music. He is just a human being at the end of the day. And at the end of the day, he was able to make a lot of people happy through his music. BRIDES have walked down the aisle to Kanye West. He is an inspiration, and hopefully one day he says, “Hey guys sorry about all that Hitler stuff I was just going crazy but I’m better now”.

Kanye Has Crossed The Line A Few Times

it kinda feels like if anyone else did the things that Kanye did, well im going to stop myself because our president… is our president and maybe has done some bad things. Just did some research on the 2009 VMAs because I saw someone say something about how Kanye was standing up for black people when he did that and I went and for the first time, watched the Single Ladies music video and the You Belong With Me music video. There’s nothing WRONG with Taylor’s video, it is fine and normal. Single Ladies video is talent, choreography, the lighting was sick too… Beyonce actually did win Video of the Year, Taylor’s award was Best Video by a Female i think. So when Bey won at the end of the night, Taylor came out and everyone gave her a standing ovation, and she was still crying about it like 10 years later. I believe Taylor’s award was fan voted… we will never know Kanye’s intention, but the fact that Taylor’s video beat Bey’s video in anything is blasphemous.

Another line he crossed was when he said he likes Hitler and all that stuff. I can’t forgive him for this like I can the VMAs.

he is only human

we can’t hold things over people’s heads. why not just see the best in everyone? everyone has flaws and problems but everyone also has some good qualities i think. so yea im gonna upload this because i want to make another post and yea

thanks for reading i love yall thank you for engaging and meaningfully engaging it really means a lot it makes me feel like maybe i said something valuable (every word out my mouth) . hope you guys are doing good<3

im in pols 3500 rn

“When you don’t know who to blame, blame the government.” – Mystery Source

my 8am bro, international organization, institutions and stuff. this dude just sits and talks at you and there’s nothing on the slides except words. if you want to see a movie, and your friend wants to go bowling, then you can offer to pay for your friend’s movie ticket to try and get them to go with you. that is a real point made by my teacher. OKAY so i started this on tuesday and now its wednesday and i only did two sentences so I’m going to track my day tomorrow

its thursday, my 8am, dude just talks the whole time, but I guess that’s what college is. Learning about cooperation and compliance I feel like I learned this in 102 and 103. and its at 8am like that teacher sucks i hate to say. he knows what he’s talking about but it’s not very engaging and it’s pretty boring, he doesn’t really relate anything to real life, just gives us terms and explains things. hopefully it gets cooler

now im in sjnm 3690

they changed the journalism code to that instead of JOUR like cmon. but its media law and ethics and the teacher just talks at you again but he has more of a personality and at least tries to keep us engaged. its pretty basic and boring but its school. this dude talking about Pop Tarts and how he’s never had one, despite being exposed to Pop Tarts. i can really appreciate his emphasis on how he has indeed been around Pop Tarts, just never tried one. he’s a comedian XD! I went to his office hours after and just said what’s up, and if he likes teaching the class, and he said he does but it bothers him that people are looking at their phones. He did say on the first day that he doesn’t take attendance and if you are going to be on your phone just stay home. I think that would bother me as a teacher its literally a slap in the face. no wonder the turnover rate so bad

now im in the union

did my chick fil a code, saw TJ, he said something about my outfit how it was cute or something, im just walking in a straight line down the path or whatever waiting for my chick fil a to be ready, saw Ty not TJ two different people, said what’s up, “TJ’s in the union”, kept it pushing, not a minute goes by, see Jeremy, what’s up, dap, “everybody at the union”. so that was cool and then my chick fil a was ready and i went and talked with them and some other people and this dude Ed like blew my mind. on my instagram story RIGHT NOW theres a poem and Ed wrote it and im like damn it actually is incredible this guy is amazing. And he’s doing psychology and i think psychology is awesome i mean it basically explains why humans do the things they do. I think its probably one of the best things you can know about. shoutout Ed. so yeah i ate my chicken sandwich and chilled and then it was time for class.

now im in hist 4810

black movie class. i didnt even know about the black part until the first day of class, you would think this is something i wouldve been all over. it seems a little performative to be honest like “oops i didn’t even know this is what the class was about” but for real the class is called Topics in History and Film. today we talked about this movie Bamboozled, and it was Damon Wayans and Michael Rapoport and G.I. Jane among others. Directed by Spike Lee so it’s probably pretty good, it seemed funny from what i saw but maybe its not supposed to be funny idk. cool class, teacher is real cool.

okay so my fourth class got cancelled today, BUT i was in pols 3507 on tues

this class is so awesome bro teacher is awesome she is so fun and makes the class engaging and entertaining, she is smart and keeps the discussion flowing. uses real world examples, really wants us to understand what we’re trying to understand. awesome lady. Its also a class about war its international conflict so that can be fun and also Horrible, and all types of negative words. but it is fun too. and we talk about the strait of hormuz or the trump strait as some are calling it. can you guess who the some is?? what if i told you the some was just one person?? but yeah we talked about iran a lot and gaza sometimes and ukraine and some other places i think. its fun to shit on donald trump and you know whoever i can netanyahu or … teacher shit on pete hegseth that was silly. but yeah this class is super fun and i really like the teacher and lowkey i kinda feel like the semester is already over broooooo. like my life is gonna be over so soon, not in im gonna kill myself way but like its just going really fast… yeah im gonna edit that out

wowee what a day

after my third class, i went to the park and walked some and ran some and then went home and took a shower and then started writing this, and it’s not even 6 pm and the day isnt over i can watch a movie or fuckin play with my thumbs geez bro. i need help no BAP, they HARVESTING me bro they are TAKING my insides bro my intangibles. who is they ? if you don’t know who to blame, blame the government. what a great quote by me that i just came up with on the spot, it goes hard icl THANKS FOR READING I LOVE YOU!!!!!! you are the goat too

truth of the day

i need to become wise and then i will be good

what the hell is Greek life and why is it important

So I was on TikTok and I saw this video of this guy and he was saying something bad about frats and I thought that the guy was doing too much, to be honest. But the comments were all like “no bid” “GEED”, and I thought that it was just weird because it was like a community of these people saying things to this old dude calling him a GEED. I just looked up the word GEED and here are two things I found.

ratiod on urban dictionary

So after seeing this video, I thought of this conversation I had with my friend Romet and I don’t remember why but he asked me what was the point of Greek life. And I didn’t really have an answer for him; I just said that it was good for meeting people and you have a lot of fun if you join. I told him that they were people that came to Ole Miss just because of the Greek life, and he said, “What about school?” I don’t know I guess that just isn’t that important to some people.

But I understand it. I am jealous that I’m not given some of the opportunities that comes with being in a frat. It’s so much fun. You get to hangout with a bunch of guys that probably like football just as much as you and you get all the alcohol (hell yeah brother) you could ever need. You probably will meet the best friends you’ll have in your whole life, and you get to hangout with girls (hell yeah brother) all the time. the allure of beer and girls is too strong for some…

But the truth is that it strips you of your individuality

I’m not in a frat so I can’t really be too confident in what I’m about to say but to me, the stereotypes of Greek life aren’t stereotypes but the norm. I just saw a dude wearing flip flops… he HAS to be in a frat. A girl with platinum blonde hair HAS to be in a sorority. It’s like everyone is trying to adhere to the stereotypes instead of break them. I don’t know. It’s even a part of the rules, like having to wear slacks and polos to class in Mississippi August heat or having to wear suits to the football games. Like what? Obviously people are allowed to wear flip flops I’m not the flip flop police,

I did research for this

So I was curious and I looked up “Greek life studies” and the first one was all about alcohol abuse and stuff so I’m gonna talk about that. Basically, the study says that Greek involvement leads to heavier alcohol use and misuse than not. I don’t think anyone is really arguing that; if I had to guess I would say alcohol is the main reason (in an indirect way) people join Greek life in the first place. During orientation, I was listening to these guys talk, and this dude was from New York. Everyone had to know he was from New York. He told some dude that he was coming to Ole Miss because he wanted to be in an SEC frat. Later, he was making fun of some autistic kid like actually autistic, not just a little strange, so… The more you want to be in a frat, the worse of a person you are, I guess? I like it. Anywho, here’s the study. It says that, there are a few reasons Greek folks drink more. One is that, people join the frat so they have the opportunity to drink more. Alcohol addiction? The second is that people view everyone around them drinking so much, that they start to view it as normal and start drinking more themselves. From the time of the participants fall semester of freshman year to spring semester of sophomore year, drinking amount was almost double. What does this mean? Greeks like alcohol, it’s pretty basic.

Greek Life is Racist?!?!?!?

So… I knew that Greek life was a pretty white activity. I did not know how white. So I went on Instagram and stalked a bunch of their pages just to try and find a single black person and I couldn’t do it. HOWEVER, I did see this one frat made their pledge class climb 110 flights of stairs on 9/11 and that’s pretty solid. “Well, Alex, why are there no black people?” I can only assume that black people are stripped of their blackness when they join a frat. I mean, it’s Mississippi. Ole Miss is a historically very racist school, and I imagine that black people are so heavily hazed that it’s barely worth it. It’s been well over a year since I touched this article, you can tell because my writing is so correct. But, since writing, I’ve learned about black frats and I played kickball with them and I kicked a home run and it was the first points of the game and I was the only white person and I was so hype. What a day for me! But yeah, frats are racist by nature I think.

I don’t remember why i wrote this I also don’t remember what the research said but you can go look at it i guess if you are interested

but yeah, I kinda hate Greek life, I think it’s corny and sad, and while I understand the pull and I understand why people join, I could never abandon myself like that. But I’m bored a lot and I hate that and sometimes I wish I had more friends so maybe I should’ve rushed, I don’t know. I’m not going to go to college to be told what to wear. Mfs pay to get told what to wear😭😭

Its important because

It’s the most college thing about college. And you know I bet it was a lot cooler to be in a frat like 20 years ago. Everything was cooler 20 years ago sadge. I don’t know why it’s important. Ask someone in a frat.

I’m going to write something else too today I think. Thanks for reading this is from over a year ago

just some thoughts of mine

I think that it is really sad that by God, we only have one life. That alone makes a person selfish. “I have to maximize my life” or whatever. I’m a really selfish person, it’s been one of my core traits since being born. I hate that about myself. I wish I wanted to do things for other people you know because some people by nature already want to like my Meme, the goat for real im nothing. I think kindness and compassion aren’t very valued; I think it’s hyper glorified at Ole Miss, though. There’s a lot of negativity in the world bro. Like what the actual flipping hell

i been movin calm dont start no trouuuuuuble wit me

I went to my four classes today and they all seem chill and fun and some of them seem hard asfffff.

I had to mention my school at least once

But anywho, yeah I just think it’s kind of sad that we don’t live in a world of friendship and kindness, but rather in one of greed and selfishness. And it just kinda seems like that is what works best for people. It seems like the most successful people or my idea of successful, are not the kindest people.

I’ve been feeling really sick like deep in my stomach. It happens a lot in the morning and I think it’s because I’m stressed or whatever I am. The world is just so depressing bro like there’s so much bad stuff happening, and you’re like “Well there is good stuff sometimes too.” The only thing we know is that we’re going to die and you know actually that sounds like a positive phrase to me. Almost like mind freeing geez louise.

I hate mfs that look at their phone when they walk I hate mfs that say “like” all the time even though I say it too. It’s one of my worst qualities probably. 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣

I’m pretty selfish. I don’t think about others very often and when I do it’s usually rooted in something that has to do with me. I think that is also probably one of my worst qualities and it also isn’t as funny or funny at all. I care about animals I do stuff for them and I’ll do stuff for my siblings and I don’t think of myself. I guess I’m nice to people like I do stuff for people. I hold the door for people that’s a pretty good quality, probably one of my best. I dont really think about myself when I’m holding the door it’s almost like a habit. Zach said something to me the other day and it was like “dude you were the smartest person in the room since you were 6” and while I appreciated the ego stroke, the sentiment was that that was a bad thing for me. And whether it’s true or not, no way I’ve been in the room with some incredibly smart people (why im trollin😭😭😭😭😭😭😭) But I hate being told no because from my perspective, I’m right. I have the best idea because I’m an evil narcissist. And I kind of think about smart a lot it doesnt really mean anything to anybody except for me. Bro its because my mom showed me my IQ when I was like 10.

short little chess interlude

Like I knew I was smart already I had good grades and I went to chess tournament, got second place to Wyatt Jordan bro what a guy. That dude checkmated me with his rook from his spawn into mine I moved my king into a pocket on the left back part of the board and there was a wall in front of himso he couldn’t escape, I just didn’t see the rook bro. That was fourth grade I’ll never forget that chess board because I lost that loss hurt my soul bro. You know what I don’t remember? I don’t remember how I won the chess tournament the next year. I have no idea. I know I beat Wyatt in the third round and then I think I beat Brad and I beat Cameron Jones second, my dog. That dude is pretty smart he knew keyboard shortcuts in like third grade he made a fidget spinner with like tape and bearings in fourth or fifth. Solid dude that one. But yeah I don’t remember my winning move of the chess tournament but I remember my losing one. I need to share this with someone smarter than me because what does that mean? It means I let the loss sit and take up space and energy because I think it makes me less of a person or ? something like that ? Why am I so fucking negative brooooooo!!!!! What da flip😡😡😡😡😡

So yeah she showed me my IQ and my ego inflated higher than it was and you know I didn’t have the best grades I had a B sometimes and I didn’t have the most friends but maybe this is something I can hold onto where im the Superlative. Is that even what I did though I’m trying to go back into my own subconscious from ten years ago, it’s kind of hard. I don’t know I only gained self awareness like 2.5 years ago I’m way behind. Whatever im so smart than why do i make such stupid decisions like the stupid loser i am😞. But yeah she showed me it, and I started to think I was smarter than adults like teachers and stuff, and my parents and random strangers, and that’s just how I was until like junior year when I stopped being such smug little dickhead. That’s the worst part bro is I would use my smart to make everyone hate me. Trolling I guess???? So after junior year, I tried changing and it’s worked but I just feel like that selfishness and that superiority complex is baked into me. I feel like I’ll never be able to actually get it out of my subconscious.

Im one of one never replicated bc they cant

They tried. Im the only me ever. I wish everyone a good night. Thank you for reading I deadass appreciate it so much bro it means everything to me really to give me your time and attention and its so hard to read things at least for me I have tiktok brain too bad. And my writing is weird and gross and a loser but no for real I love yall its love reading my little words. Really please tell me if you read my thing in real life see how much it means to me. Thanks everyone✌️

Is Under The Sun the greatest song of all time??

THIS IS A LISTEN ALONG YOU ARE SUPPOSED TO LISTEN AND READ AT YOUR OWN PACE

“I done seen it all oh my God, I swear” – Jermaine Cole

The Sample

The song samples “I’ll be Waiting for You” by The Argo Singers which was released in 1963 and its a pretty nice flip I can’t lie. Shoutout whoever produced it https://youtu.be/5TZCnYZEmuM?t=42. Click that and hear the sample and then go listen to the song and you’ll have a whole new perspective.

That J Cole Verse tho

Okay so. The little breakdown before Cole starts rapping into the bass joining the beat is just amazing. Its almost like I don’t know what to listen to because the beat is so hard but the rapping is so hard too. Like Cole comes on and starts doing dirty gross things to the beat.

“That my lil baby”

I mean this verse is crazy. Cole’s rapping is next level and the verse is barely 30 seconds. He absolutely killed it though and absolutely set the tone for Lute and Dababy.

Kendricks Part

I WOKE UP FOR SOME MOOOOOOONEEEYYYYYY AYYY LIL BITCH TOO MANY OPPS IN HERE TELL ME WHO YOU WITH AYYY

I used to be pissed that Kendrick didn’t have a verse. “How do you get Kendrick Lamar for just a hook🤓?” lookin ahh boi. But he offers a perfect contrast I think. His voice is a little higher than the rest, its familiar and to be fair the hook is amazing.

Lute has the best verse

POTATO OVER MY GUN I MOVE IN SILENCE CUZ N*GGAS BE CLOCKIN MY FUNDS

Like Lute comes in and actually starts going crazy. This song is so crazy bro. The five bar with the squeezing, neeson, reason, treason, see me, rhyme scheme is so sick espeically in the middle of the verse. I feel like this verse is really under appreciated because “What is a Lute?” He’s obviously not as big a name as Cole or Baby but I think its the best verse.

I JUST PUT DIAMONDS ON ALL OF MY TEETH NOW THEY PROBABLY THINK I AINT INTELLIGENT

Okay Baby might have the best start. He even got the extra two lines with no bass. I will say this. Rhyming “Letterman” with “Let-em-in” is crazy like maybe it’s been done before but the way Baby delivers is just different. Than the bass starts and Baby starts going crazy like fr his flow is unmatched. He got the best flow on the song for sure.

Final Thoughts

This is one of the most iconic songs of the 2010s. I mean you have Cole and Kendrick, two mega giants of the rap game at this point, DaBaby who was just starting to really takeoff into the mainstream, and then Lute who is just a guy from Cole’s label. All 3 verses have a case for being the best, they’re all incredible and they each have their own little flair. The Kendrick hook is timeless and I couldn’t imagine another voice. When it comes to rap, it doesn’t get much better than this. People that don’t like this song are racist.

What does having a website mean??

It means I am better than you.

Okay im trolling. It means that I obviously feel a need to get my thoughts out there, or maybe it means i really want people to take the things i say seriously. I feel like i say a lot of smart things but i say them in a manner that maybe they arent taken serious.

What the fuck is this kids deal😭??

Im the kid, what is my deal. I really really care what other people think. I dont know how to not really care. I really struggle a lot with self confidence, like deep down I know I love music more than anyone and I know i love sports and know everything about everything and i think i make people happy sometimes. but at the end of the day when its time to go to sleep i can never sit and think about myself and be happy with the person that i am. I have to think about being with other people or hanging out with my friends to even be able to go to sleep. I think i struggle a lot with loneliness and i think i have for a long time. Ive never really felt right around my peers except one person where i felt like “oh you get it”.

I need to write more things of substance and value

I need to write about music and movies in a way that is interesting to read. i learned a lot in my journalism classes about keeping attention and I kinda ignored because “they read for me” or something like that. but the truth is that some of my best friends dont read my shit and maybe its because they clicked on a post and got bored after 10 seconds. i still have over a year of website time left. hopefully i start writing a lot more because i have too many thoughts i feel like im going crazy. thanks guys give me recs of what to write about, give me a topic to research or a movie to analyze or music or something im so bored id love to do something at least semi productive and maybe make someone happy by doing it thanks everyone.

What the hell is jerk rap and what does it mean

New wave jerk rap can be characterized as having heavy bass, claps, sound effects, and the iconic vox vocal sample that acts as percussion. It’s “new wave” because it has nothing to do with the old “jerk rap”. Songs are usually under two minutes with most songs following the chorus, verse, chorus or intro, one long verse format with repetition, changing tempos, and simple melodies…

patchmade by xaviersobased is a great example of what “jerk” rap sounds like because really it is THE jerk song. It was produced by kashpaint, who is the creator of the sound. He created the first piano melodies that xaviersobased used and blew up from. In patchmade and other songs produced by kashpaint, he uses a specific vox sample from That Girl by Pharell. Other vocal chops are commonly used as well. The first use of the Pharell chop was over four years ago with the song ouu ouu (kashpaint) by Bloody!. He is a part of 1c34 which is Xav’s rap collective and label. 

The difference between jerk and the mainstream trap space is that jerk is pushing what we consider rap. One account said that a lot of the music in the jerk scene is closer to dance music than trap. And it’s true. A song like Pure Cocaine by Lil Baby is similar to patchmade. Simple piano melody, use of a clap… lyrically, they are similar in a lot of ways. I challenge you to listen to both songs and try to see the similarities because they sound quite different. You can’t really dance to a song like Pure Cocaine. Let’s say there’s two types of lyrics in rap; drugs, money, girls, guns, and then the personality. What is the difference in Lil Baby or Future’s personality in their music? (disrespectful to Future because he really is a trailblazer, but now…) Future and Lil Baby aren’t different enough to both exist in today’s music climate. The mainstream has rules; certain lines you repeat in different ways because it’s “hard”. The first line of Pure Cocaine is a line about his wrist and the weather. Master P has a song called Ice on my Wrist that came out almost 30 years ago. My most listened to song of 2022 (Lineman by 10kdunkin) has, “My wrist is a glacier, it’s changing the climate.” We can sit here and keep making weather related jewelry lines, or we can stop. Actually, I think it’s fine but there needs to be some creativity. The reason I say that is because MadeinTYO has a line, “Rocky mountain wrist, feel like Colorado” and I think that’s pretty creative. On the other hand, the first line of patchmade is “Walk up in the mall, and I ball, b**** I’m patchmade.” Being “patch-made” is a term that comes from the NBA 2K videogames. Basically, certain players would come out better than others after an in-game update (patch), and the players that didn’t get boosted would say the other players were only good because of the patch, and viola. Nobody in the mainstream is talking about video game basketball. 

The clothing is different as well. Trap artists such as Lil Baby or Young Thug might focus on Louis Vuitton, Gucci; Future has the famous line on Thought it was a Drought, “I just f***** your b**** in some Gucci flip flops”. Lil Uzi has a chorus that’s, “AP, Muller, my rollie,” and has a different song called New Patek in reference to luxury watches. The jerk scene is much younger, Gen Z, and cares more about the swag era and being comfortable. Supreme, Bape, graphic tees, baggy sweatpants, jean shorts; on the cover of his album install, which patchmade is on, Xav is wearing a supreme shirt, jorts, and a ushanka, which has become a trendy accessory. But it’s also not a very serious accessory especially in the middle of July. (install release date) Also, Xav has a line in another song where he says, “Asics on my feet, boy you still rockin’ Yeezys.” I have Asics because of that line.

Xav has a line in the song, “I can’t f*** with n***** if they right-wing,” and another song goes, “I can’t f*** with the states, this s*** be classist.” In a time like now, this is all more relevant. I’m not voting for a Republican the next time I vote because of that line. There’s another song that is in the same vein as patchmade, called Ova Here by Sleez. She says, “All about justice, yelling free Congo.” I think this musical space that jerk is a part of, as well as digicore, and plugg and whatever… It’s all a lot more political than anything mainstream. Obviously, it’s not so easy for Lil Baby to make a song where he says I don’t f*** with right wingers. But I think it’s also just a young people thing. We WANT to speak out against the shit that makes us mad. There’s something really special about this generation; we’re the first generation to have the internet our whole lives. And we understand the rules and limitations of the internet more than any generation before us.

The point is that Xaviersobased is the goat, and I had to do this assingment for class

12 Stout Street

I had to write 750 words talking about a song I thought everyone should hear, and there were some other rules that don’t matter as much and I chose 12 Stout Street. If you know, you know, if you don’t, you’re about to find out so.

When it comes to “realness”, there was only one song that popped into my head: 12 Stout Street by RX Papi. In the song, Papi mentions his drug abuse, grief with his mother, robbing, and killing etc… It’s incredibly crushing. 

When you look up the word “real” on Urban Dictionary, the top result states, “It is said in the comment sections of tiktoks or in the repost messages of reposts you find on your for you page (fyp) on Tiktok.” This is direct 12 Stout Street influence.

Papi always starts his songs with “Real RX”. Around fall of 2021, the song was used with depressing images on Tiktok to make slideshows. People would comment “real” as a way of saying “I agree”.

At the time, it wasn’t just a song; it was a movement. Saying “real” after someone says something you agree with became common even in my day to day life. It’s not to say that the phrase “That’s real” hasn’t existed before, but the song offered that slang to a whole new generation.

But at the same time, the song is much more than a trend. It’s a story about a boy that was failed by his surroundings. The actual 12 Stout Street refers to a house in Rochester, NY where Papi’s father was murdered when he was four. In one line, he says he wishes the house burned down.

He also brings up his mother a lot in the song. He says that his mom didn’t buy him things and that he had to sell drugs and rob people to get money. His mother kicked him out of her house because he robbed someone and gave her the money. It’s maybe the most emotional part of the song with Papi starting the next six lines with “How the f***”. 

Papi’s experiences are the same experiences shared by young black men in poverty since the 1980s. Father was killed when he was four, stepfather in prison, mother always working not having time for him… of course he’ll turn to the streets. He even says, “Before Neo or Jet Li, I was the one / My mom ain’t see it but the streets did”. He is literally telling us that the streets saw a potential that his mom never saw which led him down that path.

The Papi we get in this song is much different than the rapper we get in most songs. Typically with hip hop, the substance of the music revolves around drugs, money, women, etc… It’s not common to hear someone TRULY be honest in their music about something that isn’t material. 

The song was produced by Gud. He is a part of the group Sad Boys with Yung Lean, and they are Swedish. Gud also makes music under the name Rooster where he sings as well. Lean is known to be a pioneer of the cloud rap genre.

The reason that any of this is important is because Gud is a legend. Musically, he has produced some of the most recognizable songs in the underground (WHICH DOESN”T EXIST!) hip hop world such as Ginseng Strip 2002. If you haven’t heard it, I highly urge you to. He did Agony by Yung Lean.. that’s probably the actual saddest song I’ve ever heard.

Gud has only produced one album that wasn’t associated with Lean or Sad Boys. That album is Foreign Exchange by RX Papi. 12 Stout Street just so happens to be the first song on the album. 

I met up with my friend Fred and told him I was writing a paper on 12 Stout Street.

Real. 

He started getting excited about the song, talking about how he remembers the slideshows and how people will comment real on posts today. Literally what I was writing about… It feels good when somebody agrees with me.

In terms of streaming, 12 Stout Street has 3 times as many streams as Papi’s 2-10 most popular songs combined. There’s a playlist on Spotify that is 12 Stout Street 300 times. That adds up to about ten hours worth of time. That playlist has 3000 saves on Spotify… a playlist of the same song 300 times.

Of course it’s a significant song. It’s a quiet significant though. If you weren’t on Tiktok towards the end of 2021 and the beginning of 2022, you don’t know this song, this story. But that is my purpose I guess… To write about the music that is important to me.

im in pol sci 251 rn

This isn’t even a political science class, it’s a math class. And it pisses me off (Draymond Green reference) because it’s like too simple. It just is a class defining terms like different variables. Why does it matter if I can identify between a ratio variable and an ordinal variable?? I feel like, if anything, I should be taught how to read and understand information. I don’t know, maybe I will learn to see the class for what it is. We don’t talk about politics in here. She doesn’t apply the concepts we learn to real world activities. I can’t use my laptop in this class either, but lowkey I be on it anyways because I’ll just walk out and leave. Actually she’s talking about the State of the Union address but we’re not analyzing it or anything. If ten people answered between 1-10 how much they liked the address, how can we measure those values? Mean, median, and mode. I’m doing mean, median, and mode in my pol sci 251 class. She just said it’s easier to find the mode and median when you put the numbers in order. I wonder if everyone else feels the same. She said I have to put my laptop away, bye. I left in the middle of class because I was bored.

now im in jour 271

We have to pick a beat and he’s basically doing a draft and if I get a bad pick I’m gonna be so mad. We talked about the State of the Union for the first 20 minutes. I was the second pick im the goat everything always works out for me. I chose music, obviously. Actually, letssss fuckingggg gooo im so hype i got music. I literally work at the music factory. But I have like 800 words due Monday morning, and another thing due Friday morning. I’m going to have to lock in on my work and not just lay on the floor looking at my phone for three hours. Actually such a mood lifter bro.

now im in span 111

My Spanish class is so lit. It’s two hours, but never feels that long. The teacher is super helpful, I think he might be one of the best teachers I’ve ever had. I actually feel like I’m learning the language at least a little bit.

now im in my bed

I did my Spanish class and went to work and then went home and did nothing and did some reading and i dont really have anything else to say. but i do usually have a lot to say… just not right now. Hopefully I write more, my thoughts are too awesome to live in my head forever. thank you goat nation

Music Right Now

If anybody knows anything about me, it’s that I love music. And I realized that I hadn’t written about anything in a while so I’m just going to write about what music I’ve been listening to.

Last year, I tried to expand my taste a lot. I started deep diving into a lot of artists discography’s like Westside Gunn, JPEGMAFIA, Mach-Hommy, Dean Blunt, and MIKE, but as of late I’ve been listening to a lot of underground rap. So I don’t know this is a ramble piece.

Protect

IF YOU NOT BALLHOG, THEN DIE!!

Top 5

  • Go Pro
  • bbysit
  • Lace Em Up
  • #FreeTank
  • Hotspot

Protect is next up. He blew up at the beginning of 2024 when BruceDropEmOff promoted one of his songs and was in a music video, and since he has reached close to 300k monthly listeners on Spotify. So, I started writing this a few days ago, and now he’s at 316k so he gained probably close to 30k monthly listeners in a few days. I started listening to him in December, and I discovered him because of a TikTok I saw… Then I was with my friend Fred and I was like, “You know Protect?” and he was like, “Listen to this bro,” and he played bbysit and I never looked back. I think that what sets him apart from other artists is his flow and he’s always talking about ballhog and whatnot. He does everything Osamason does, better. I don’t know I hope he doesn’t get caught in a bad deal or whatever.

MIKE

MIKE is probably the greatest artist of all time. I’m a sucker for artists that produce their own music, and MIKE produces music under the name dj blackpower.

Top 5

  • Backseat – Tisakorean **dr.grabba mix**
  • No Curse Lifted (rivers of love)
  • Pieces of a Dream
  • Ipari Park
  • Burning Desire

I had a really difficult time with the top 5. It’s crazy to me how few people listen to dj blackpower. MIKE has 772k monthly listeners while dj blackpower only has 29k. That’s a 26-1 ratio. Only one out of every 26 MIKE fans, know about dj blackpower; it’s heartbreaking because dj blackpower has some of MIKE’s best work. MIKE isn’t for everyone. He does the talking, drowsy kind of rap that Boldy James does, over sample heavy production… A lot of times he doesn’t even rhyme, he’s just talking. His favorite rapper is Earl Sweatshirt, who helped a lot when he was first starting out. He works a lot with El Cousteau, Niontay, and Wiki.

fakemink

Top 5

  • Hi, I’m Blessed
  • Secret
  • Sniffany
  • Fake It
  • Mink

Oh fakemink, where do I begin? This dude is basically the modern day Beatles. He is the leader of a new generation of artists from the UK. When I first started seeing stuff about fakemink, I didn’t check him out because he was British and I felt that he didn’t even deserve a chance. I kind of feel like he’s fading away a little bit, though. None of his music in 2025 is that good but maybe he’s planning something.. I don’t know.

the end

so thats all I have, I haven’t written in a really long time and i want to so hopefully this will lead to me wanting to write more and maybe i can figure out how to make the website look nice and not just make it blue… new post coming soon maybe